overcoming the fear of being seen

I wanted to create content on YT for the longest time. But always had some fear around doing it.

I used to think -

what will my friends think about me?
I didn’t want to be seen as a weird guy

what if my thoughts ideas are judged?
I didn’t want to feel vulnerable

what if I’m not successful in this?
I didn’t want to be seen as someone who couldn’t make it or failed in this by others

this fear of being seen kept me in my comfort zone. It stopped me from doing a lot of things I really felt like trying out.

for the longest time, I have been inconsistent with facing this fear but recently I took it up as a challenge to overcome it.

but the main problem was that when I’m procrastinating, I’m not even aware that I’m avoiding this fear. Only after a couple of days when I sit down to reflect I realise this.

so the first step I took was to constantly remind myself that I was doing this experiment of facing my fears. not forcefully but playfully to see what happens.

kept reminders on my phone to PAUSE.
to stop whatever I’m doing take some deep breaths
and then ask myself:

am I avoiding what really matters to me right now?
me: yes almost all the time

am I trying to prove myself to others?
me: yes kinda

but is there anything to prove in the first place?
me: silence

if there is nothing to prove then be you.
doesn’t matter what others might think.

it reminds me that I’m perfectly imperfect in whatever stage of life I’m at.
I don’t have to prove myself to feel worthy.

this induces a surge of energy within.
the energy of acceptance for who I am.
which dissolves any unworthiness I have at the moment

and acceptance transforms this fear → self-love
self-love → puts me in a flow state where I’m doing what I love without procrastinating

that’s how I was able to hit record and share this here :)

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